Well I appear to have made it to the quarter mark, having been happy about something every day for the past 26 days. I am really glad I decided to do this challenge, as I think it has generally made me a lot more happy. I have always been a naturally happy person anyways, and maybe I have been happy for 26 days in a row before without having noticed. But on this challenge I have had to eradicate the shit days, the boring days, the days which nothing happens of any interest whatsoever. I think there is probably more benefit in eradicating all the occasional shit days, than having lots of good days. I guess I've always been pretty manic, and so it doesn't take a great deal to get me excited about something, but thats just temporary happiness, the real happiness that should be the goal of all ambition is 'contentment', a long term steady happiness that does not necessarily make you (bloody hell I just spelt necessarily correctly, I must becoming some kind of spelling legend! Mind you sometimes the computer swaps i s and e s around, without asking, its just making assumptions and giving you undeserved confidence, like some sort of confidence trickster!) Whoops I digress, err yeah long term steady happiness which is not like jumping around going crazy but just content and thankful for blessings. That's the good thing about this challenge, it makes you thankful for something everyday, which should in theory make you more humble. When my life was in a complete mess, I always imagined it like a roller-coaster, up and down from one instant to the next, but like a roller coaster with none of those crisscross support thingys, ready to come smashing down to earth at any given moment. Then I guess I had to get some of those crisscross support things, they come in the form of friends, family, resposibility, finance, real life stuff! Although I have always felt lonely despite my many friends, I can still be completely irresponsible and my financial sense is abysmal. Its a lot better than it was and I am working on these things,and I now consider them which is a starting point. I would imagine true love is probably a fairly substantial amount of crisscross strut thingys but my experience of that has been more like an evil monkey, with a spanner ( or a monkey wrench, hed probably have a monkey wrench!) randomly taking bolts out of my roller coaster, often when its right at the top! Haha anyways what I was trying to say is that life does go up and down like a roller coaster, and often its ok to be sad, but you need those criss cross thingys else your f*cked! Haha I thought for a while a might be manic depressive, but in hindsight I realise I was just a manic who got depressed!
Haha anyways what did I do yesterday? Er fairly nice day at school, I worked on my ceramic cross for around 6 hours, and even though it was exceptionally frustrating, and nerve racking and involved a huge amount of painful concentration to the point where my eyes went funny around 11pm, as with all creative experiences left me with a feeling of satisfaction, plus I really did think I was getting there and pleased with the new design. Its a lot more simple it just has the Korean gate at the top which is the entrance to the high school, the little banner will have the haedmaster's dates and the knight on the shield is the crusader which is the school sports mascot. The lettering was just painful as you had to hold the knife at exactly the right angle.
Although putting it into the kiln is gonna be a bloody scary experience and I am going to say lots of prayers as clay is always a gamble and this whole thing has made me remember why I'm not a ceramicist!!
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